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  I felt that I was in control of my voice so, “Well I guess that mabe we should talk. I think that I need to be able to understand why you had to react that way. I don’t want to have the wrong assumptions.”

  I felt my heart fall to my stomache. I didn’t want to feel rejected, cause it did seem as though he wanted me. I am just confused.

  “You said we needed to talk that something had crossed your thoughts the other day, I would like to start our talk their first.” He was very serious now. I turned over in the bed to where I was facing him.

  “Well I remembered that the only time that you had said anything about having to explain to me about your life and that it was complicated to explain, was when I lived in Maine, before I met you and it was in one of my realistic fantacy’s that I used to have of you. But honestly I don’t see how anything like that could be possible.” I starred at him waiting on his reaction and waiting for what he had to say.

  He sighed. “Promise me that you won’t leave me screaming if I tell you about me and my life. Please! My life is complicated.”

  I starred at him strait in his eye’s. “Mica I told you that I love you and I will want to be with you forever, no matter what. I promise” Then I leaned toward him and kissed him once on his full perfect lips, then I smiled.

  “I believe you.” He said. “Well first do you believe that their can be things in this world of the supernatural nature. Please be honest.”

  “I think their are things as ghosts, spirits roaming the earth until judgement day, but other things I’ve thought about, but I’m not real certain on.”

  He sighed and his brows pulled together in what looked like stress. “Raven I have a gift. I can enter someone’s dreams or they’re fantacy’s. I was drawn to yours. Like some force of nature pulling me there to you. I really was there in your fantacy, it’s like this, my body stay’s where it is at but my mind enter’s the fantacy or the dream and I can take any form in them. In your case I was my self.” He stopped, waiting for my reaction to his words, gazing into my eye’s with his searching mine.

  “What..... I mean are you...” Words failed me I didn’t know what to say to what he told me. I sat their speechless for a moment, and just stared at him, confused.

  “Are you okay Raven?” I could tell that he was starting to get anxious.

  I shoved what he told me to another place in my mind then, remembering that I just told him that I love him no matter what. Then I spoke. “So, what does that mean exactly? Are you part of some type of supernatural being?” I felt crazy even asking that question. I waited.

  “Yes. I am immortal, I will never die, and so is the rest of my family. Were not exactly sure what we are exactly, but we have an idea of half of what we are. That part is just common sence to us. Were not sure how our kind came to be even.” He looked to make sure I wasn’t about to pass out or something.

  “I think that I can handle this, I’m grasping it.” I took in a deep breath, then exhaled slowly. “So what are you half of?” I asked confidently that I really could handle this. I half smiled trying to encourage him to go on with his explaination of his life.

  He gently took one of my hands and placed in both of his and held it to his face and smiled. He spoke then. “We are half Vampire.”

  I gulped. This was not what I was expecting to hear, I mean they go outside in the day, they work with humans all the time. They can’t be bad then. I told myself. Mica and his family are the most kindest, sweetest people that I have ever met. I decided I wanted to ask more about that. “So how is that possible. You eat human food and other things that you hear that a vampire can not do, in the stories I mean.”

  He laughed at that. It made me feel less nervous. “Well Raven,” he said. “it’s like this. We have the strength of a vampire, they’re speed and our sences to things are so much stronger that it is hard to explain. We are venemous in a way, we don’t sleep though, not during the day and not at night, none at all.” I seen a hint of a smile playing at the corners of his mouth. “That’s why we are alway’s up and dressed before you. To answer your question that you asked me once before.”

  “Huh.” Was all I was able to say.

  He continued. “We can like you said, eat human food, we don’t drink blood, but when we were reborn we craved it, but we were told that we could eat human food and we did and over time it eventually stopped. It don’t bother us to be around people. Blood does run through our veins along with the venom that heals us if we get hurt in some kind of way, but we have no heartbeat. We are able of course to go into the sun, when real pure blood vampires can’t. And we don’t need to breath. I guess you could say by that reason and because our hearts don’t beat that we are not alive. That would be why our skin is also so cool or cold.”

  We were silent for a moment while I let the information sink in.

  “I see, I think.” I said comming to be myself again. “So why can’t we be physical in our relationship?” I tried not to let any of this bother me. I can handle this. I told myself in thought.

  “Well once we were to get physical......., well you would belong to me forever and I would belong to you. I will be able to sence you where ever you are and how you are feeling, you could never be with anyone else but me and I with you only. Their will be no turning back after that, but even before we were to get physical you would have to be turned. For some reason unknown our kind, the women are unable to bare children. If we were to be physical and you were to get pregnant, we wouldn’t be sure what the child would turn out to be. We were told that it could turn out like us or like a pure vampire or something else entirely, something new and unknown and that can not be chanced.” When he said that I noticed some kind of emotion to cross his face and I could not place what it was. “And also if we were to get physical before you were turned I could hurt you. You are after all human, a mortal I am not and my strength is so much more than you could imagine. I definantely don’t want to hurt you.”

  I thought about that and agreed. “So, don’t think that I am being rude, but since you are half vampire....., do you have fangs?” I stared waiting and hoping that my question did not upset him in any way.

  He smiled. “When I had to leave the room just a little bit ago, with my mouth covered, they came out. They can come out when we are excited or mad or with any type of stong emotion that we feel. We can retract them when we are calmed.”

  “Oh.” I said relieved that I hadn’t made him sick or anything of that nature. “Earlier you said that you were drawn to me, did you know that I felt like I had a connection with you and your family, I was drawn to you and I never gave up. That’s why I entered that contest. I felt like I had to be with you somehow! Do you know why that is?”

  “Actually I found out the day after you left New York, the day after that horrible cast party that we had. You see, my father also like me has a gift. He can see the past and the future, he has preminitions. He only told me that in our past lives we were in love and that our love was so strong and so pure that that is the reason we are so connected. It’s the reason that we feel like we have been together our whole lives, the reason that I fell for you so fast. It was fate that brought us together through the contest, the reason I felt the need to have the contest in the first place and the reason for your talent of art. Everything that has took place in this life we have lived has been preparing us to come together. He also told me that in our past life that I had gotten killed” -he winced as he said he was killed--”somehow, he would not tell me how, but he said after that, you voweled to find me in our next life. This happened in the year of eighteen fifty, but it is only now that we found each other.” He winced again a little when he mentioned the year of when we were separated, it seemed as if their is more to this story than he is telling me. I have that feeling and so far all of my feelings that I have had, have been true. I’m learning to trust my feelings now.
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br />   “So how long have you and your family been this way?”

  “Let’s just say it has been over one hundred years ago.” he said, sounding once again like he is keeping something important from me. Some type of vital information, that I may need to know.

  “What happened?” I asked trying to pry a little more information from him.

  “Well, my mother was the one who was turned. She was out one night walking home from somewhere, when a man came up behind her. It startled her at first, but he seemed very nice and acted as if he wanted to help her get to where she was going. It was a different time then. When people actually did things like that to help someone out, so she didn’t think anything about it.” He paused as if to think about how to word something that he was going to tell me.

  “She finally arrived home and she was turning to tell him thank you for walking her home, he looked at her and apologized and said that he had no other choice that this was the only way that he felt like he could save her from something bad happening to her. Mom was confused and that’s when he grabbed her very quickly and bit her, he sank his fangs into her neck and drained half of her blood then replaced that half with his venom. That’s what he told her he did after so many of day’s of her being in the dark, litterally. He explained to her what she was now to his knowledge anyway,-- he only knew also that he was half vampire he didn’t understand what the other half of him was either,-- and that this happened to save her life from something much worse than what he was. He said if she wanted to be with her family that she would have to change them one by one, that would be the only way possible. He told her what she needed to do if that was what she decided. She did, obviously. She turned us one by one without us knowing what she was doing or what she was. She told us afterwards and said that she was sorry that she could not bare to live without any of us. Including Liza and Carter who were married to my brother and sister.”

  “I think I can really understand now. It feels good to know the reason why I was so drawn to you, the reason that I felt like I was having a dejavue like I had met you before and I actually had, just in another life time. I’m glad that I know this now. I wish you would not have kept this from me this long. Even though it is still a little hard to believe, but I can believe because I had feelings for you before I met you and all of the realistic fantacy’s that were actually real.”

  “I’m just glad that you are taking it so well, that you are not freaked out by it and to know that you really do love me and want to be with me forever, as soon as you are turned.” He said glancing at me with that last part that he said.

  We talked alot more about this subject, but I started to get tired after three hours and it was time for me to sleep.

  “Mica can I ask you something before I go to sleep?”

  “Sure Raven. Anything.”

  I looked into his eye’s as I spoke. “I don’t want you to leave me here in the middle of the night, since you don’t sleep. But you won’t bite me unless I ask you to right? You’ll let me decide when I am ready for that? Don’t get me wrong I love you, but that will be something I will need to think about. I have alot to process, this is alot for me in just one night. And don’t worry I will never leave you. I love you too much. I promise.”

  He seemed a little irritated when he answered my questions. “How could you think that about me?” It was a retorical question of course. “I would never do that unless you were ready, but if you ever want to have more to our relationship you will have to be turned. So you really do need to consider it. Please!”

  “I will Mica, and I’m sorry if I offended you that was not my intention at all.” I sighed. “I love you Mica, goodnight.” I said starting to drift asleep at this point.

  “I love you too. Now get some sleep, the family will want to talk to you tomorrow and we still have alot to talk about, their is much that you still need to know and understand.”

  “Okay.” I said slurring my word only half conscience.

  It seemed like two seconds later I was fast asleep. I didn’t dream tonight, but I was well aware about what Mica had told me and what we had talked about even while I slept through the night.

  My mind also wondered all night while I was sleeping. Seeing that Mica and his family is over one hundred years old by immortality, so they must not age. I know how much that I love Mica, but the thought of immortality is really something to seriously think about. It is actually for eternity, forever litterally not just a saying, but I will think about all of it.

  I woke up this morning to Mica’s cool lips on mine, and I kissed him back and smiling as I did.

  “Good morning Raven!” Mica said returning my smile. “How do you feel today, you know after our talk last night?”

  “I’m adjusting, but I’m fine, promise.” I sighed. “I really am glad to understand everything now. I feel even closer to you than before and that is one feeling I love having, because reguardless I still love you and I alway’s will.” I said very confident.

  He didn’t speak, he just leaned down and kissed me, not only on my lips, but down my neck and then back up to my lips. This lasted all of two or three minutes, then he rolled over on his back and sighed. So did I. Except for he had me breathless, my heart racing with wanting him so badly, but knowing that is not possible right now. I’m not really sure about becomming immortal, but I do know I won’t be wearing any more langerie. At least until I decide that I want the immortality.

  * * * *

  It has been two months since I’ve learned the dark truth about Mica and his family and about the other dark things that are really out in this world where we live.

  Mica and his family are off of work for now. They’re on a break you could say, until the director decides to make the last film of the Dark Love movies. Mine and Mica’s relationship has grown sincethat night that he told me about him and his family. We are alot closer and much more loving. The only thing is that I’m still undecided about being turned. I don’t feel like I can have everyone I know grow old before my eye’s, then also We’ll have to move on alot for the fact that none of us will age, I can’t just leave my mom or my cousin that way without a word from me, just leaving and not returning. I could never see them again, I don’t want to be that selfish. I’m not ready to take that step, but the more I refuse to be turned,the tension between us physically grows stronger. I just hope that we don’t cave, from what he say’s that would not be a good thing. It’s hard though because we love each other so much and in truth we want each other, we want to show our love for each other romantically. But knowing my luck I would end up pregnant and the baby wouldn’t be as what the rest of my family are, it would be something different. But I am making the choice not to be turned, so I have to hold off on my part.

  I have also learned alot about my new family-- new family in so many way’s, now that I know the truth about them, most of it anyway’s. I still feel like sometimes I am not getting the whole truth, from Mica anyway, but I’ll find out soon enough.

  Charles of course has the talent of premoniton. Angelic has the gift of being able to feel when someone is angry or lying, telling the truth, she can tell when someone is powerful and someone who’s not. Then their is Vincent, he can move things with his mind.That can be useful. Mica told me that once they were turned that is when they started to notice they’re gifts and then learned how to control them, so that they could mingle with humans in this world in which they just want to live they’re life like any other normal person. He told me that they did not use they’re gift’s unless they don’t have any other choice, but I think he’s wrong about Vincent. Vincent seem’s like the type to want to do it anyway just because he can, but Vincent is a good person he just like to clown around sometimes.

  But this is my family now, gifted or not- which some of them are not for reason’s unknown-- I love them all the same. They all seem much more comfortable no
w that I know the truth about them, that I know they’re secret and knowing for sure that I love them so much that I would never tell anyone, thanks to Angelic and her gift of knowing your feelings and knowing that I am not lying. I’ve already gotten used to the idea of what they are. I trust them and it don’t bother me one bit about what they are.

  Their is one thing though, that does bother me. Knowing that their are real monsters out there in the world going around killing innocent people. It makes me worry about my mom and Lila. Knowing all of this and they are in the dark, but mabe that will be enough to keep them safe. I really hope so. Mica assure’s me that they will be fine. I don’t know how he can really be for sure, but I would like to think that he does know that.

  I also found out about they’re silver eye’s. They are silver because of their immortality, and when somebody get’s the courage to ask them about the color of they’re eye’s, they just say it is a genetic thing. I like the color of Mica’s eye’s they are very beautiful, I could stare into them for eternity.

  Mica is really good to me and I’m loving all of it. We take walks and lay in bed together. I never want to go to sleep,but I am mortal I have to fall asleep eventually. We talk about everything. The love that radiates from him, their is so much. The way that him and his family and now me are so close is wonderful. I think it is the way families should be, mortal or immortal.

  I love this life that I have right now. For the family to be what they are, their is so much love in them. I’m glad that I never listened to the people who said I was crazy for feeling like I belonged with Mica, that I cared about him when they thought that I had never knew him or met him in my life. I am alot better now in so many different way’s, it’s unbelieveable the way I feel now. I’m happy, I havn’t been really happy in a long time. Lavon was really making my life bad and just pure miserable. I don’t think that I have to even worry about him any more, he is after all just a human and I know that Mica would never let him hurt me. I belong to Mica I am his now and I alway’s will be even If I’m not immortal.