Dark Truth Page 9

  “Nothing but work and listening to Mica gripe all the time,as always. I’m telling you, that is all he’s done since you left. You seriously at least need to talk to him. Mabe it will quiet all the griping and make it easier for the rest of us. But anyways, whats up with you this week?”

  “Not to much just getting ready to go out and look for an apartment with Lila. Nothing really interresting.”

  “Raven I was calling you today to ask you something.” She sounded like she might be a little nervous of asking me whatever question that she is wanting to ask. That made me nervous.

  “Ask away.” I said, trying to put my nerves behind me.

  “We were thinking since you know, your birthday is comming up, that mabe you would come up for a visit so we could go out and celebrate it with you.”

  “Oh! Well Angelic I would love to---, but I’m really not sure if that is such a good idea right now. Plus I just got a job and it wouldn’t be a good idea to ask for time off when I just started.” It was mainly because I still don’t feel like I’m ready for facing Mica. Not just yet anyways. My mind isn’t clear enough to make rational desicions about him.

  “Are you still worrying about what happened with Krystal?”

  “No, not really. I try not to think about that day at all. It’s just, I don’t know. I guess you could say that I’m Not ready to face your brother.” I said as that was what I was just thinking.

  “You are still being so stubborn!” She said frustration in her voice. “I wish we could start over, I would have made sure that she would have never made it through our front door than none of that would have happened , then mabe you would still be here as we speak and I wouln’t be having to beg you to come visit.”

  “Look I’m just not ready to upset the balance that I have found for myself. Mabe it would have been different if she hadn’t shown up, but I’m sure it would have happened eventually.”

  “Raven. Jeezzz. My brother likes you. I wouldn’t lie. So their is no balanc to upset.” She paused for a breif second. I heard voices in the background, but they were sorda muffled as if she was covering the phone with her hand. Then she was back on the phone. “Raven hold on a second someone wants to say hi.”

  “Okay.” I was sure that it would be Liza.

  “Hey, Raven.” I heard the most wonderful voice say. “How are you?”

  My heart started to skip beats just at the sound of his voice. “Mica. Hey. I’m fine. But hey, I really need to go I’m running late, I have things to get done. Tell your sister I’ll talk to her later.”

  “Raven, wait I want to tell you something, please.”

  “Sure, go ahead.” I said and sighed.

  “I hope your not still upset over what Krystal said. I promise Nothing goes on between us. I really do like you Raven, I hope that you can believe that. I know you have to go, but I hope to talk to you again.” He said sounding sincere. I don’t understand it though. How can he be so emotionally involved with me, I mean he just met me. I’m glad that he does in a way, but I just don’t understand it, Especially the way he seems to make sure that I believe him when he say’s that he is not messing with his co-worker. I hope he’s not. Oh well, mabe he feels the same way I feel. The way that I feel I’m supposed to be with him, the way I care for him. Everyone thought I was crazy, so I guess I won’t question his non-understandable devotion for me.

  “I’ve already told you I’m fine. I just have some things to sort out with myself, but I really do have to go, okay.” It was hard to hide the longing for him that I am feeling, but I did, barely.

  “Okay, I’ll talk to you later. Bye Raven.” He sounded pretty down that I can’t talk right now, but I can’t concentrate on that right now. Even though it hurts me in ways that it shouldn’t because he may be hurting over this whole thing to.

  “Bye Mica.” I said, then hit the end button on my phone.This is surely going to make me dream about him more, and my fantacy’s are going to come much to often, I can’t control when they come or go anymore. It’s like my fantacy’s have just taken over. Uggg why can’t I just go back and see him. I mean the feelings I was having before I met him are still here. I still watch the Dark Love movies and it still feels like I’m supposed to be where he is, and where the rest of his family is. Lila stopped my thoughts.

  “So what was all that about?” Lila asked me

  “Angelic wants me to come to New York for my birthday. But I’m not going. And she was being sneaky and put her brother on the phone to talk to me.” I just shook my head. Speaking to him is also surely to leave a mark, even if it isn’t a visible one.

  “Why not? I know that you still want to see Mica. I seen the way you looked when you were talking to him. It was plain on your face that you want him. Even if both of you barely know each other, which is weird and sweet at the same time. Love at first sight, litterally!” She said smiling at me in a mocking way.

  “Theirs just to many mixed feelings their, and I’m not ready for that yet.”

  “Well I’m saying I think you should go.”

  I gave Lila a look.

  “Okay, fine Raven. Lets just get going.”

  “Thank you Lila.”

  We went out and I found a few places that I liked. I just couldn’t decide, so we went out everyday looking at places. I finally found the one I really liked. I can’t move in until next month though. I already paid the deposit. I’ll give them the first months rent when I go to move in. Me and Lila already have all of my things packed, so now I just have to wait. My new furniture will arrive the day that I move in, so everything is perfect.

  Today is the day before my birthday. It’s been about two weeks since I last spoke to Angelic. I’m sure I’ll hear from her soon. I left her a message on her phone two days ago. I wanted to return her message that she left me, where she was pleading me to come save her from her brothers griping. But I said I’m not ready for that yet.

  I really do want to go, but I can’t do it, I can’t go right now. It might be different if I knew for sure how Mica felt. Does he just want to be close, close friends or if he does truely like me relationship wise. I know my feelings, I just need to know his, and to know what is really up with him and Krystal. My feelings say that their is something else than what Mica was telling me. I’m not saying he’s lying, I just don’t think that he is telling me everything. Which he should if he likes me the way he say’s he does. That’s what I think anyways.

  But every since I spoke to him on the phone that one and only time two weeks ago, I can’t get him out of my head. My fantacy’s and mostly my dreams are a whole lot deeper and more involved and they seem more real than ever.

  My last dream of him was actually last night. This dream that I had last night was not pleasent though, as the others were. It was a dark dream. It was of me and Mica. We lived together in New York with his family in their beautiful three story house. But the strange thing was, that the house was the only best part of the dream, standing their mounted in the ground so beautiful.

  In the dream my eyes were a dark deep silver just as Mica’s and his families were. Their were also other’s there in my dream, one’s who’s eyes were blacker than coal. The black eyed one’s had come for me, they were very frightening to look at. It was if their faces had changed from normal one second to visious creatures the next. Their eyes narrowed and seemed to peirce right through me. They kept comming closer and closer to me each quick step that they took. Then suddenly out of nowhere, Mica was standing half crouched in front of me, faster than was possible. It was as if he were gaurding me from these dark one’s. But the thing was, that I didn’t need his protection. I was as strong and as fast as Mica seemed to be. As the black eyed beings tried to attack me, I was suddenly standing behind them, with only one thing on my mind. I was about to kill them, about to rip out their throats, when suddenly I woke up covered i
n sweat and breathing hard and telling myself that it was just a dream and that I have been watching those Dark Love movies one to many times. But I still wonder why my dream was so hideous, what could make my conscience drag these dark dreams into my mind.

  This dream I had last night seemed so real! It was very unnerving. But it was just a dream, I hope. Today is another day and hopefully better dreams will come to me tonight.

  I am sitting in the livingroom now waiting on Lila to come over. Were supposed to go shopping today, since I have the day off of work, I want to buy something new to wear for my birhthday tomorrow, I’ll be twenty-two years old. Me , Lila and Shaneil are supposed to go see a movie tomorrow, like a girls night out. I called Shaneil yesterday to see if she wanted to go out with me and Lila for my birthday.

  She was very excited. I think mostly because I actually met the famous (Mike Wolfe) and some of the other cast members, not to mention that she has seen the magazine, the one where the pictures of me and Mica kissing were in it. That right their had her going. She had a million questions. She wanted to know what it was like; kissing him? She wanted to know what him and the others were like, what they wore, what they ate, what their houses looked like. So many questions. I had to hurry off the phone with her saying that I had to help my mom with dinner, so she wouldn’t think I was getting frustrated with all of her questions. Which in truth I was starting to.

  My mom interrupted my thoughts with a crazy question that seriously could have waited. “Raven, has Lila got here yet?” She asked me from the kitchen.

  “No mom, you’ll know when she gets here because I will tell you.” I yelled back to her so that she could hear me, then started to watch some show that was on t.v..

  It seems like all they show on t.v. anymore are these stupid romance movies. Thats what is on now and it’s killing me to watch it, but their isn’t anything else on really, so I guess that I will just have to endure it. But then I just decided that I would just think to myself some more.

  I am seriously so excited about tomorrow. I feel like I am a kid again. When I was with Lavon, we never did anything on my birthday, but he went out on his. Anyways it’s going to be great to go out with the girls and not have to worry about what will be said to me when I get back home.

  While I sat their and waited on Lila to get here, I started to fantasize again. my fantacy’s were always so perfect. This one started out good. In my fantacy, Angelic and Liza decided to come here to Maine and visit for my birthday. We all went out to the movies including Lila, of course.

  After the movies we went out dancing at this club Lila knew of. We were having loads of fun, laughing, talking, just having a great time hanging out. Then still good, Mica shows up and ends up warming back up to me. It seems as though he really wants me and not as a friend but as more than that. He sweeps me off of my feet, we dance all night and talk. Then he decides to lean in and kiss me like he did in New York.

  Everything was perfect again. But then out of nowhere my fantacy turns dark, just like my dream did. Lavon shows up and is furious to find me with Mica. But before anything could happen, a loud knock on the door interrupted my fantacy, and I came back to reality. The place where Mica isn’t at. I’m glad in a way that it was interrupted, cause I’m sure that it was about to get worse. But what gets me about my fantacy, I wasn’t even thinking about Lavon really, for him to show up in it. It just don’t make sense to me. And now I’m starting to get those same vibes, same feelings. I shook them off the best I could, cause I had to get up and answer the door.

  “Hey Lila. It’s about time you got here. I’ve been waiting half of the day for you. “I said as she walked in the door.

  “I know, I know. Sorry, but I needed to get the house cleaned up first.”

  “Yeah, I understand that perfectly. So anyways, are you ready to go?”

  “Definately. Let’s go shopping.” She answered a bit perky.

  “Mom.” I yelled into the kitchen where she was. “Lila is here. Were leaving. I’ll see you tonight. Okay.”

  “Okay Raven. I’ll see you girls tonight then, but be careful.”

  “Sure mom, we will. No worries, okay.” Then we turned toward the door and left.

  We went to at least four different stores before we found something that we liked, and it took us five hours to find what we wanted to buy, but we finally did.

  My blouse (shirt) was like a silk fabric. It was black. My jeans were designer and sorda artful. I felt that I deserved something nice, expensive or not. I bought a pair of black open toed sandle heels to go with my outfits. I bought more than one outfit, but the outfit with the black blouse was my favorite. The other outfits I got were similar, only they were different colors. Lila also got some nice clothes that she loves. After our little shopping spree, we went out to eat. That’s when I got my phone call from Angelic.

  Ring, ring

  I seen the number.” Hey Angelic. Whats up?”

  “Just calling to see what time that you were gonna go back home tonight.” She sounded excited, even more than usual, for she is a very perky,excited person.

  “Why? Whats going on?” I asked suspicious. It’s wierd this is something similar to the fantacy that I had earlier.

  “Oh, nothing.” She said, but I could tell that she wasn’t telling me the truth.

  “Well then why do you want to know, if their isn’t anything going on?” I shot back at her in playful tone, but still suspicious.

  “Fine, fine. I’ll tell you. Look, me and Liza are here in portland Maine. We are staying at the Holiday Inn.”

  “What? When did you two get here?” I practically yelled with excitement.

  “Calm down. We got here about two hours ago. We wanted to be here for your birthday, since you completely refused to come to New York. Which is incredibly crazy.”

  “Is Mica here with you?” I asked. suspicion coloring my voice. I still feel like she is hiding something, but mabe it’s just my too good imagination. Who knows!

  She hesitated at first, but then answered me. “No, he’s not here.” She paused. Then continued as if she’d never said anything about her glorious brother. “So you and your cousin should stop by, or mabe even stay over. We seriously need to catch up on things.”

  “Hold on a sec.” I said “Let me see if Lila has to go home or not when were done.”

  “Sure.” she said.

  “Lila?” I asked. “Do you have to home tonight?”

  “No I don’t have to. What’s going on? You seem really happy and over excited.”

  “Angelic and Liza are here to celebrate with us. They want to know if we want to stay over with them at the Holiday Inn where they are staying.”

  “Seriously?” She asked smiling wide. “Why would you even have to ask me that? I would love to meet them, that would be great!” Now she was the one that was overly excited.”

  “Okay, great. Let me tell Angelic.”

  “You still their Angelic?”

  “Of course. Why wouldn’t I be?”

  “Whatever.” I said to her in a playful, sarcastic remark. “Anyway’s we’ll be over as soon as were done eating. Call me back in a few and let me know which one your staying at. Okay.”

  “Sure thing, and I’ll see you guy’s when you get here. Bye Raven.”

  “Bye Angelic.” I said then hung up the phone.

  I barely got the phone hung up before Lila about went insane. “This so great.” She said. “Their are no words for how excited I am. I get to meet Ang....”

  I had to cut her off. “Lila you have to be quiet. You can’t say their names out loud, they are famous you know.” I whispered to her.

  “Oops. Sorry. I didn’t realize I was being so loud.” She said with excitement still coloring her tone.

  I just smiled in response to her excitement. I’m gla
d that Lila finally get’s to meet my new friends. I’m alway’s talking about them and to them. They alway’s seem to call me when I’m with Lila. I know that they will make Lila feel comfortable, the same way they made me feel the first night that I met them. So no worries on that part. It will be great.

  We were finally finished eating, so we payed the bill and got up and left. I am so glad that Liza and Angelic came here for my birthday. I was starting to miss them. I talk to them on the phone, but it’s nice to get to be around them, it makes meeting Mica seem real. Which it was, it’s just that sometimes it doesn’t seem real, mabe because I try not to think about it because what happened in New York. Plus Angelic can make anyone have a good time with her being so happy and perky all of the time and Liza makes you feel so welcome and comfortable. They really are great friends.

  On the way to the hotel, Angelic called to let me know which Holiday Inn they were staying at, and the name her and Liza were staying under, obveiously they can’t use their real names. After, I called my mom to let her know that I wasn’t comming back tonight.

  When we got to the hotel, we went in and I gave the name to the lady that was at the desk. She gave us the room number and when we were on their floor we were met outside the elevator by a man and escorted the rest of the way. It must be nice to be a star sometimes. I thought to myself. You don’t have to worry about just anyone finding your room and trying to sneak in, but being famous you alway’s have to be on guard when your out somewhere. That has to be a pain sometimes.

  Chapter Eight

  My Birthday

  When we got to their room door, the man knocked on the door. We were greeted by Angelic as she opened it. Then we went inside.

  “I have seriously missed you Raven. It’s great to see you again.” She said, and gave me a tight hug. “I need to kick your butt for not comming to New York, but I won’t. “She smiled. I could see that she was excited to see me.

  “It is good to see you again.” Liza said as she gave me a hug, like we’ve been friends forever, but in truth it has felt that way.